The following is the journey of our hearts and feet through the surgical procedure as described below:
· An anterior cruciate ligament construction through stripping his hamstring from knee to top of his leg through an 10cm incision and pealing back the skin to reach the upper parts of the leg. This tissue is then removed to create ligament type muscle. This is then fixed as a graft to one side of his leg and wound through the condyles of his knee to create the stability a normal ACL would provide. This is then fixed into place through and incision at the front of the knee.
· A osteotomy (a cut) through the tibia and also an incision in the lower leg to separate the fibula from the tibia.
· The fixation of a Taylor frame through three separate ring attached with approx 10-12 pins through the tibia and the rings secured through several rod screwed into the bones.
July 31 11:35am
So we sit and wait. After 7 years of knowing this day would come we sit in a 6 bed ward with so much going on around us and we keep breathing. It is a surreal feeling to know that you are waiting for such a momentous change and you cannot stop time! Your body feels as though it is turned into so many twists and knots that you surrender to the possibility of relaxing and let yourself shake and clench at its will.
Each time you look at the clock it is racing ahead and yet it feels in slow motion.
Our boy is courageous and strong. He knows and understands that this is big! He stops every couple of minutes closes his eyes and breathes deeply. It is as if he is willing his spirit and body to be calm and to keep walking. There is nothing we can say to him that has not been said. There is nothing we can really do now to distract him. We must walk beside him, hold his hand, hold his little body and let him know he is held.
My mind wills me to slow my thoughts as they race forward rehearsing the moment when he will lock eyes with mine and we will both know that in this moment all sense of normal has changed. In that moment I will surrender him on that operating theatre to the hands that created him, moulded him, delivered him to mine and ultimately the ones that are his constant. In that moment I will walk away from him and know there is nothing I can humanly do for him.
He has such courage. He has such strength. He has such trust. He has such heart.
I am not sure I could walk out this day with as much strength and grace as he has. I am not sure that I could be so patient. But he is and he will be!
And so I breathe in and out, stretch and glance at the clock: 11:47. After 7 years it is now only an hour away and we are surrendered to its coming, its definition and its purpose. This moment is held and we wait to walk into it……
· An anterior cruciate ligament construction through stripping his hamstring from knee to top of his leg through an 10cm incision and pealing back the skin to reach the upper parts of the leg. This tissue is then removed to create ligament type muscle. This is then fixed as a graft to one side of his leg and wound through the condyles of his knee to create the stability a normal ACL would provide. This is then fixed into place through and incision at the front of the knee.
· A osteotomy (a cut) through the tibia and also an incision in the lower leg to separate the fibula from the tibia.
· The fixation of a Taylor frame through three separate ring attached with approx 10-12 pins through the tibia and the rings secured through several rod screwed into the bones.
July 31 11:35am
So we sit and wait. After 7 years of knowing this day would come we sit in a 6 bed ward with so much going on around us and we keep breathing. It is a surreal feeling to know that you are waiting for such a momentous change and you cannot stop time! Your body feels as though it is turned into so many twists and knots that you surrender to the possibility of relaxing and let yourself shake and clench at its will.
Each time you look at the clock it is racing ahead and yet it feels in slow motion.
Our boy is courageous and strong. He knows and understands that this is big! He stops every couple of minutes closes his eyes and breathes deeply. It is as if he is willing his spirit and body to be calm and to keep walking. There is nothing we can say to him that has not been said. There is nothing we can really do now to distract him. We must walk beside him, hold his hand, hold his little body and let him know he is held.
My mind wills me to slow my thoughts as they race forward rehearsing the moment when he will lock eyes with mine and we will both know that in this moment all sense of normal has changed. In that moment I will surrender him on that operating theatre to the hands that created him, moulded him, delivered him to mine and ultimately the ones that are his constant. In that moment I will walk away from him and know there is nothing I can humanly do for him.
He has such courage. He has such strength. He has such trust. He has such heart.
I am not sure I could walk out this day with as much strength and grace as he has. I am not sure that I could be so patient. But he is and he will be!
And so I breathe in and out, stretch and glance at the clock: 11:47. After 7 years it is now only an hour away and we are surrendered to its coming, its definition and its purpose. This moment is held and we wait to walk into it……
2 comments:
Janet and Dug you trully do have an incredible son - God has gifted him with such strength, wisdom and patience well beyond his tender years. Your words paint such a clear picture of your little man sitting, waiting, so brave! We love you and continue to uphold Caleb and each of you in prayer. xxxx
Prayering for you and your family, Caleb. Good job on the puzzle, those things are hard! Can't wait to see your smiling face at school again.
You Rock!
God Bless
Mr Staines
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