This has been a day where we have learnt a new way of normal and routine. The day has seen Caleb go through tidal waves of pain and discomfort only to settles into the clam between the waves. He has surprised all with his tolerance and strength, but this afternoon our boy has needed to listen and slow and heal. He is currently as I write this back on oxygen with his respiration rate too low. It is now the delicate balance of bearing the pain and staying comfortable and being able to breath deeply. They have had to drop his morphine as the low respiration rate is a sign of the morphines impact on the body.
I am struck by the irony of his circumstance and our daily lives- how much we need to keep ourselves comfortable and learn to breath even when the pain threatens to overwhelm us. We need to take the time needed to heal and often this is the precious balance of having to acutefully feel the pain and allow it to take its course. If we don’t allow ourselves to feel that pain by completing blocking it out, we risk not fully breathing in the fullness of the moment. It is feeling the pain whilst still breathing in and out that we truly allow its purpose to surface and then and only then can we truly begin to heal.
I am struck by the irony of his circumstance and our daily lives- how much we need to keep ourselves comfortable and learn to breath even when the pain threatens to overwhelm us. We need to take the time needed to heal and often this is the precious balance of having to acutefully feel the pain and allow it to take its course. If we don’t allow ourselves to feel that pain by completing blocking it out, we risk not fully breathing in the fullness of the moment. It is feeling the pain whilst still breathing in and out that we truly allow its purpose to surface and then and only then can we truly begin to heal.
2 comments:
My dear Janet - I am constantly reminded of your words that for our children to become great overcomers they will have things to overcome (I am sure you said it more eloquently!). So logical yet so profound! Caleb is indeed an overcomer!! What truly incredible things does our God have in store for your little man!!! What a brave boy he is. Please give him hugs and kisses from all of us xxxxx Jenn, Andy, Eli Bek, Noah and Isaiah xxxx
Dearest Janet, Dugald, Caleb, Jamie and Molly,
OH MY GOSH ... HOW FULL ON!!!! (And yes, I am yelling!) ... we are thinking of all of you at this time ... as always, Janet, I love hearing your truthfulness and rawness ... Sending you all the hugest of hugs and so much love. We expect that although it has been a challenge facing the emotions, expectations, and questions of what this operation will bring, it will also open up a new door for Caleb ... our hearts and deepst thoughts are with him and you guys. Am so glad you've got this blog going ... it will be great to hear how things are as you post them.
All our love. Melissa, Andrew, Noah, Maya and Aisha.
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