Tomorrow is a big day

It is 3 am and I sit here trying to ellouquently put my thought down in words......but it is not working. we foundout today at the frame is COMING OFF tomorrow morning. Our surgeon surprised us with the news at today appointment (the second time as 3 weeks ago he surprised us with the removal of two pins).
And so tomorrow the journey with an external fixator comes to an end. Our excitment comes cautiously as Caleb must have a plaster for two weeks and then have a pressured boot fitted for 6 months and he is none too happy about a cast at Christmas time. However as I sit here in the wee hours I am struch but just how significant tomorrow is!!! There is a strange part in all of us that can't explain how we feel? You would think that we would be ecstatic about this day and yet it is so mixed. Calebs frame has become a part of our life and even he is not sure about how things will feel tomorrow. At our appointment today the struts that were holding the tension and weight of Calebs leg were released and he walked with his full weight through the bone for the first time. The brave boy soldiered on as this created a lot of pain to begin with. It is truly miraculous to see the way that he works through each of the new things thrown his way. it is easy to see now how the events of these last months have truly created a stronger more determined Caleb.
There were so many times that I thought we had lost a part of Calebs spirit and I was not sure he would ever return, but slowly by slowly through the last couple of weeks, he has come home to us. Through his determination, he has walked out of this both literally and symbolically stronger and more mature.
And so the words do not come easy tonight as I find myslef tumbling through the last couple of months in my mind and I cannot adequately express what tomorrow brings for us. And so I will return to bed, try and sleep and tell you all about it tomorrow.